Brushes off the dust on this thing

The past couple of months have been brought to you by high processed foods and lack of exercise. About November my get up and go got up and went. It left me in a funk that I am slowly coming out of. I have been paralyzed with fear to write and fear to start exercising again. The why bother gene has kicked into high gear. I am starting to kick it to the curb. I miss working out and getting sweaty. I miss getting stronger. I am just finding it really hard to get started again. The following is what I have done in the past couple of weeks to ease back into exercising and eating healthy again.

1) I am not Catholic but I really like the idea of Lent and giving up something. This year I gave up chocolate and Fast food. My definition of fast food has been a restaurant where I can talk to a clown, or someplace I do not tip. It has been hard but getting easier. There is 2 more weeks to go. I have been enjoying other sweet things instead of chocolate like homemade larabars and vanilla ice cream when I have been wanting something sweet.

2) In the past 2 weeks I have walked home 3 times from work. It is about 1 mile and takes me about 28 minutes. The first time I did it I was in PAIN for about 3 days after. Yesterday was really good and I am not feeling pain today.

3) LM and I joined a Sunday Pilates class. We missed last week but I plan to not miss anymore.

4) This is the one I am most excited and most scared about. My Y is now offering a night TRX class. I saw the message on facebook and quickly called to sign up. I will be taking TRX for 4 weeks starting Tuesday April 3rd. Of course once I signed up the doubts started. Oh boy did they start. I paid money for this class though and I am not going to let it stop me!

I am disappointed in myself

Today I walked for the Cure in Lexington Kentucky. There were so many people and it was a great time. Pretty cool because of the wind but a very nice day. No rain which was really nice.

The are a couple of different reasons why I am disappointed in myself.

- I have not been to the Y since before going on vacation (over a week ago)
- I have not been recording my food.
- I am mindless eating and getting trigger foods when shopping.

But. The biggest reason I am disappointed in myself is because I did not go for the 5K today. I stopped after 1 mile. I am just kicking myself for not going on. The reasons I stopped seem so minor. I was going at a good speed. I was feeling good. I had to go the bathroom slightly but nothing that could not wait. I basically scared myself out of going on.

I will put this behind me and move on. Next walk I will do the complete 5K.

Wow, a graph again

It is Friday weigh in day and the graph is below.

I have 4 weeks to lose 14.5 lbs to make my original goal to be 250lbs by my 40th birthday. For me I do not think it is possible. I am very much ok with this thought. I am modifying my goal to be 225 by 2/25. I think the new goal is kinda catchy! Sometimes for me it is about the numbers. I just can not let it be all about the number on the scale.

With that being said I am realizing my blog title is not really fitting. I am Yapping but not really about weight loss. The blog post the other day by Waisting Time: Whats in a name got me to think about wanting to change my blog name again. I just do not know what to change weight loss to. I know I want to keep YAPS. I just adore the acronym. But what am I really yapping about?

In other news I have worked out every day for the past 6 days:

Saturday: 1mi walk for the health and soul fair. It had only about 20 people and I was dead last. I still finished though! I walked with LM from: 146 TShirts.
Sunday: 30 minutes on the elliptical at the Y
Monday: 30 minutes on the elliptical at the Y
Tues: 60 minutes water aerobics. I used the 8lb weights!
Wednesday: Pilates class. I bumped it up a notch and went to the Int/Adv class. I am still sore. I was surprised at how much I was able to do.
Thursday: Bowling. Yes I really think it counts as exercise.
Friday: Elliptical again for 30 minutes. This time I tried the variety program instead of interval.

Tomorrow I have pilates in the morning. Then I will see if LM wants to do some cardio at the Y. Maybe even a nice relaxing soak to reward myself after working out all week. I am debating about taking Sunday off.