Wow, a graph again

It is Friday weigh in day and the graph is below.

I have 4 weeks to lose 14.5 lbs to make my original goal to be 250lbs by my 40th birthday. For me I do not think it is possible. I am very much ok with this thought. I am modifying my goal to be 225 by 2/25. I think the new goal is kinda catchy! Sometimes for me it is about the numbers. I just can not let it be all about the number on the scale.

With that being said I am realizing my blog title is not really fitting. I am Yapping but not really about weight loss. The blog post the other day by Waisting Time: Whats in a name got me to think about wanting to change my blog name again. I just do not know what to change weight loss to. I know I want to keep YAPS. I just adore the acronym. But what am I really yapping about?

In other news I have worked out every day for the past 6 days:

Saturday: 1mi walk for the health and soul fair. It had only about 20 people and I was dead last. I still finished though! I walked with LM from: 146 TShirts.
Sunday: 30 minutes on the elliptical at the Y
Monday: 30 minutes on the elliptical at the Y
Tues: 60 minutes water aerobics. I used the 8lb weights!
Wednesday: Pilates class. I bumped it up a notch and went to the Int/Adv class. I am still sore. I was surprised at how much I was able to do.
Thursday: Bowling. Yes I really think it counts as exercise.
Friday: Elliptical again for 30 minutes. This time I tried the variety program instead of interval.

Tomorrow I have pilates in the morning. Then I will see if LM wants to do some cardio at the Y. Maybe even a nice relaxing soak to reward myself after working out all week. I am debating about taking Sunday off.

Blog- I have neglected you

I must admit that other things have occupied my time in the past week. Exercise, Work, Sleep, etc have all taken priority over the act of typing words on a screen. I have been falling asleep at night thinking about posts that I would like to write, but never typed a word. I have been reading the blogs I follow and smiling and nodding along with the insights, trials, and accomplishments. I just have not been commenting. I missed posting for Friend Making Monday. Today is usually my NSV list day. I am even taking a break from that. I plan to do my measurements this weekend and maybe take some updated pictures. I think both will be great NSVs for next week.

One thing that I am proud of is that my exercise has not suffered because of playing more computer games. What has suffered is blogging. That I can live with I think. I am not Catholic but I do give up something during Lent. This year I gave up computer gaming. It was also when I started my blog. I guess because I had the free time and was so high on new ME energy I was blogging almost daily. I was losing weight every week and trying out new exercises and other things that I had fun blogging about. Now that I have had a 3 week long plateau and I have started playing Garden of Time on FB my blogging has slacked off. I am doing about the same exercise and eating the same things each week. BORING!!!

With that being said I do have some post ideas. A new work challenge has started this month and I think it is going to be a hard one for me. I have my weigh in post tomorrow and I sneaked a peak today. I think my graph will be back tomorrow.

I would love some ideas though! What would you like me to write about? What would you like to know about me?

Warning: Brain Dump Ahead

Today's post is not going to have a theme or be centered on any one thing. I have a bunch of thoughts in my head and I am just going to write about them.

Yesterday I went through my closet and removed all the size 26 or 26/28 pants and capris. I ended up with 17 pairs of pants and 9 pairs of capris. Wow. I really did not think I had that many. One problem is that I would only wear the same things over and over again. I bought clothing because they kinda fit and then would not wear them because I really did not like what I got.  The closet looks a bit empty. I did fix that some with getting 3 pairs of capris from Avenue the other day. I had a good coupon and they had a sale. I have figured out I am firmly right now a size 22. 18/20 is too small and 22/24 is slightly too big. What I picked up is some 18/20 since I know I can get there soon. I have listed the pants on the local cheapcycle list and we shall see if I can sell them. If not they will go to goodwill.

 On Friday we got a new scale. It is a WW scale with a bunch of bells and whistles. It stores data for up to 4 people. The extras include measuring of % body fat, water, and bone mass. Oh yeah it also does BMI. I think the interesting thing was the bone mass. Not sure what the accuracy is like but it is stating that I am over on that. I have always said I am 'big boned'.


LM and I did go to the Y and tried out the bikes on Friday. We road about 10 minutes to get the feel of things. One bike was having a problem with keeping the seat locked. When the seat was at the lowest position I could not ride it. It put my knees in a bad position. The other problem is that it was really HOT out. We did not bring water/sunscreen/other stuff to deal with the heat. The big thing is that we know we can do it.

I got an email yesterday from Win Lose Blog stating that I was not chosen to compete in the next 7 week challenge.  It got me really bummed out and at one point I was doubting my blogging and even my weight loss. Then I thought about Skinny Emmie's most recent post: I do it for me. She hit the nail on the head with this one. I will be following Win Lose Blog and may even try again next season. I have the last 4 weeks of my work challenge and also working on my 100 hour challenge at the Y to work towards in the summer. The Beat the Heat challenge starts today but I do not have 5 goals set up. For those of you that are doing the Beat the Heat challenge would it be a problem to join 'late'?

Yesterday was food shopping and we ended with going to the Farmers Market. There was so much to choose from. We ended up with: new red potatoes, eggplant, cucumbers, and beans. YUM! Also fresh made pasta. That is for dinner/lunch today.

Brain dump complete! Now it is time to get some stuff done. Have a great 4th!

I got a Blog Award!!!

Wow, my first Blog award. 

Karen at Waisting Time picked me on Monday as a Stylish Blogger Recipient. I am really in awe and want to thank her for my first award. I have been blogging 4 months now and really having a great time talking about my journey. The other great thing is the connections I have been making with other bloggers. I have laughed, cried, and nodding my head in agreement as I read.

Now to the 7 things about me.

1) I am a water baby. I love the water and wish I lived by the ocean. My background is from a trip to Florida last year. I am trying to get to the beach at least once a year. I wish I could swim better and I am thinking about taking an adult swim class to help that. I do not like to get my face in the water much. Now I just want to find a nice swimsuit that I can do water aerobics in. I think I have bought 3 recently and nothing is just right. Next I think I am going to try the local swim shop. They carry speedo.

2) I was a teenager in the 80's and still long for the feathered hair look. I was not into the 'big hair' but loved having the feathered look around my face. I have layers now but it is not the same. The shortest I have ever had my hair was my shoulders and that is when I was about 10 years old.

3) I am not a big fan of the color green. If you look in my closet right now you would only see 1 green thing and that is a T-shirt that I got free from work. I love the color green in nature, but it so does not look good on me.

4) I really like red. I just like the pink-red-purple spectrum. I keep on buying red shirts lately. I even got this bright pink shirt the last time I went shopping.

5) My pants are mostly black. I am trying to branch out and I have recently purchased some purple capris as well as a beige pair. I do not think I will ever willingly wear White though. *shudder* The white t-shirts I get from conventions get Tie-Dyed.

6) I bought clothing recently in a size 22 and I have been scared to wear them. I am still not believing that I can wear a 22. I worry that they will be too tight and I will have a wardrobe malfunction. I know logically that the pants may be snug but they will fit. I am just not all mentally there yet. I still gravitate to the 24s and even the 26s in the morning. I am doing ok with the 22/24 pants that have some stretch to them. Hopefully in a week or 2 I will be more secure in my wardrobe.

7) I am trying to learn to gracefully say thank you when people comment on my weight loss. I am having a really big problem accepting the praise. I had a random woman today mention it when I was going into the Y. I think she is a regular in the water aerobics class so she has been seeing me for months now. She yelled out of her car window that I was looking good and she could tell I had lost weight. I just find it so hard to answer with style. To not stumble over my words.

Dang this was hard! It took me a bit to get started, but I think I came up with 7 interesting things about me and my style!

Now for my Nominations! 
 I am suppose to pick 15 but I am not reading that many blogs. I am going to stick with 5!

Noel @  http://noelfigart.com/blog/

Emmie @ http://skinnyemmie.com/

Leila @ http://withinpages.blogspot.com/

Katie @ http://www.areyouwilling.net/  and http://www.zumbafitnesswithkatie.com/

Maia @ http://musingsofmaia.blogspot.com/


Thank you again Karen for my first blog award.

My Reading

I have added a new blog to my reading list.

Dances With Fat
Health comes in all shapes and sizes.


Sometimes I read a blog post and it just gets me thinking. Her posts did that.

My thoughts: 

I have always believed that you can be clinically defined as fat and be healthy.  

Many people from all professions and all walks of life disagree with this belief. I accept that. My personal goal is to be healthier. I want to be off my medications. To do this my blood sugar and blood pressure must be in line. The main suggestions I get to do this is to exercise more and to limit simple sugars. By extension doing these things most likely will cause weight loss. 

I want to go up and down the stairs without feeling like I am going to die. I want to go out dancing and be able to boogie till the sun comes up. I want my knees to not hurt and pop. I want my arthritis to be managed and not just by taking pain pills. To do this I will need to increase my muscle strength. By extension if I am burning more calories because I have a bigger muscle mass I could lose weight. This of course is only if I do not increase my calorie intake.

For this blog I picked 250 by my 40th birthday almost just out of the air. I went with the average of 2lbs a week and I would have 41 weeks to get there. It was a total of 78 lbs to lose. So I went with it. Actually now that I think about it I also picked 250 lbs because that is when I did feel healthy. Once I started to get over that number everything health wise started to get worse. Years ago when I was about 250 my doctors would tell me to lose weight and not have a health reason other than I should not be that much. All my other clinical numbers were fine. The doctors would say that the numbers will not always stay fine if I do not lose the weight. Their excuse was that my age was balancing out the weight. I call shenanigans. Now if I get to 250 and I can not do all I want to do I will make new goals. One of them may even be more weight loss.


I want to enjoy life and all it has to offer. I want to go out with friends and family and have great times. I want a balance that has been lacking in my life. I want to be healthy. For me this does not equal being skinny. I may always be clinically fat. I can be healthy at the same time. I am glad I have a doctor who understands this. I wish that others did as well.

Insert something Witty here.

I have been slacking on my posting lately. Once Lent was over I started back playing computer games again. This has caused other computer items to be pushed to the back burner. I am going to the gym and keeping up my food diary but I have not been writing about it. I know there are a couple of reasons behind this:

1) Lately I have thinking about blog ideas and then I read a post on one of the blogs I am reading and it is mirroring what I had been thinking about. It is worded so much better than I think mine ever could be. I love reading other blogs and I am commenting. It is just making it hard at times to post about myself.

2) I have had a couple of days where my food intake was not where I think it should be. It is really hard to write about the hard times. I love writing about the good things.

3) I am being very critical of myself when I do start a blog post. I keep comparing myself to others even though I know this is my journey.

4) I have been busy. Workouts and meal planning is slowly becoming the priority before computer blogging and games. Now I just need blogging to be before gaming.

So for those who are reading... Can I get a topic? What is something you would like me to write about?