Mid-Week Musings and Rants

I am going to start of with a couple of good things, move to the not so good things and then end with I hope some more good things. We shall see.

Yesterday I called DrF to find out if she wanted to change my Glyburide based on my A1c results. She agreed that it needed to be changed. I am now taking 2.5 MG twice daily instead of 5mg twice daily. She also said that if I notice the numbers going down more with my weight loss I can go down to just 1 pill w/ dinner. I am really really happy about this.

On Friday I will be participating in my work's biometrics. It is part of our work wellness program. They will do a blood test for sugar and cholesterol and also measure blood pressure, weight, etc. Once I have the data I can enter it online to get a wellness score. I am hoping that the score will be better than every other year that I have entered data. The score goes from 0-100 with the lower the number the higher your risk. 0-70 is Very High, 70-80 is High, 80-90 is moderate and 90-100 is low risk. My 'best' score was 76. in 2008. I am looking forward to the numbers.

Now on to the not so good things.

Yesterday/Last night a storm system moved thru the area and about 2pm yesterday I started to feel the changes. It made me cranky, tired, and in a brain fog. These are all previews to getting a migraine. The lights started to hurt at work. I came home and had some dinner and then took a nap for almost 2 hours. So not a good thing. I did not take meds soon enough and woke up this morning in a complete pain fog. I could barely open my eyes it hurt so much. Time to bring out the prescription meds and call in to work. Keeping food down was a struggle and spent much of the morning in bed.

This afternoon has been better, but struggling with good food choices. Sometimes I get so fixated and frustrated on food. I just want to not have it be one of the first things I think about in the morning and one of the last things I think about at night. I want to have healthy choices become 2nd nature. I want to know what is better at restaurants. Heck I do know but sometimes just do not go with that choice. Today it was after driving JD and LM to work I wanted something for lunch. I thought about Qdoba but the parking lot was just too full. I ended up at Jimmy Johns. I ordered my usual and it is 820 calories. I am starting to beat myself up because I did not replace the mayo with mustard and that I got cheese. The sandwich could have been so much less in calories if I had just done those 2 things. I am trying to figure out if there is a reason I did not do that. Did I want to sabotage things? Now the bag of skinny chips is sitting beside me just mocking me. Why not just scarf those down as well? Does it even really matter?  I will work through these thoughts. It is just hard with still having the brain fog.

I am also starting to beat myself up over not going to work out last night and not going today. I know I need to recover from the migraine and that working out could cause a rebound. It has happened before. I am just so worried that if I do not go then I will stop going all together. Of course that is not the case because I have a workout partner LM who would get me back in to the gym. It is so great that she has joined. I also have my Tai Chi class that I have to go to since I paid for it. I will probably go thru the moves tonight at least 3-5 times and that will help center and calm me.

Now to help me get out of this funk I am going to end with some good things.

A couple of people at work as well as some family have noticed the weight loss.
I portioned out a bag of pistachios so I have another snack ready to take to work.
I do feel that I am getting stronger.
I found a cool website that has listed healthy menu items from multiple restaurants.
http://www.healthydiningfinder.com/
I am getting great ideas and tips from other bloggers that I have been reading.
My work's wellness website (say that 5 times fast) has a new feature this year. I think it will give me some great information along with the other parts of the site.